we are still alive

Sorry for not posting lately. Things have been a little crazy. We are in Hamburg now with Tobias our friend who was an exchange student at Dartmouth. Ive also been hanging out with Mariana (my ex-girlfriend from years ago who was an exchange student from Brazil) and have been trying (unsuccessfully) to have a single conversation with her.
Its hard to articulate all of this surrounding Mariana because its such a long story, but...it sucks.
Luckily I have Wacken tomorrow - the world's largest heavy metal festival. I need it. Too many emotions right now for me - depression, sadness, anger, frustration - all while Im with friends in a great place when I should be enjoying myself. Tomorrow I'm just going to jump right in to the mosh pit with 80,000 Northern European kids and just let it all out. Metal has saved me from myself too many times in my life already and tomorrow is just going to be another example. My metal pilgrimage reaches its conclusion tomorrow in the tiny town of Wacken.
For now, though, I have to somehow pretend to have conversations with Mariana some more. I have such great luck with relationships/women
awesome